Being alive is so hard for me and I don’t understand how easy things seem to be for everyone else. Basic things like getting out of bed, showering, brushing my teeth, cleaning my room or eating are so hard for me. How is it so easy for everyone else? If I do one thing, I am usually out of energy and I literally can’t convince myself to do anything else. Once I do my schoolwork, I usually have to choose between these because I know I won’t be able to do the others. I only ever eat at school because I hate being questioned and I hate attention being put on me. I can’t talk to anyone in real life and I feel like I almost die every year on break. I eat so little that it makes me even more tired so then I don’t get out of bed to eat, which makes me even more tired. I feel so disgusting I just can’t take care of myself. It’s so embarrassing but I can’t get better. I’ve tried so hard. I’m just so tired all the time for no reason.