I suppose I’ll continue with frustrations I have, outside of art and such. My partner, I love them dearly, but I often wonder sometimes what they think of me. I’m aroace and pan (a lot to explain but it’s possible for me to be both), as well as genderfluid. I’ve told them I’ve had troubles with gender and everything in my life. Being SAed/rapped so many times by so many people really messes a kid up, but not I’m an adult dealing with the repercussions. Though they often call me only She/her or focus on my feminine side, not that Im ashamed of it, just that they often are too lewd towards me. Often being disappointed when I talk about getting top surgery, saying how they like my chest especially during lewd acts. I don’t mind it, I just wished they weren’t lustful as they are. Often I sit or lay down and cry, because is this all they see of me at times? I remember they fought with me because I didn’t want to have sex for months. I almost told my ex friend, never did though. Not anyone.