old vent that still applies The more I hurt myself to punish myself, the more I punish others. All I do is pity myself. Pity pity pity. All I ever fucking do. I try to fix problems, but it keeps going backwards instead of forwards. I hate myself. If I didn’t have these scars no one would think I’m an attention seeker. I hate myself. Killing myself would be doing everyone a favor, even if they don’t know it at the moment. They won’t have to stress anymore. They won’t have to cry or worry about me or be annoyed at me because I cut myself AGAIN. Horrible. Horrible. Horrible. Horrible. Horriblehorriblehorriblehorrible. Disgusting. Ugly. Ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly. Stupid. Stupid stupid. Fucking stupid. I can’t tell anyone about this because it would be a burden to them. Everything bad happens when I’m around. Everything. Everything. Everything.