Im tired, I try so hard to be positive about my passions, I try and say I’m improving and doing better. But every time I look at my art and compare it to what I want it to be, it just looks like a concept. I’m trying so hard, it doesn’t help that I’m jealous of other artists. Nor that my ex friend’s birthday is tomorrow, I do hate that I sometimes still miss them, but I also feel like I moved on. So confused for a person whose already had to understand so many different things, and yet my emotions get the better of me and mess up all the progress I’ve built up for years. At least I’ve stayed true to all my family and friends. Thats all I can say for certain. Though I hope I can change for better, be less jealous, improve in art, get over a friendship I have to move on from.