I'm 20 years old and i curse the adults in my life who continuously let me down. I wasnt set up for success like I see so many of my peers who went to college were. I moved out of my parents house at 16 from an abusive and neglectful mother. I didnt think about my future be because I was too busy surviving day to day. I moved in with my sister to finish high school, where she was too busy with her children and figuring out their next duty station. I then had to move out with my at the time boyfriend, because I wasnt her dependent and couldn't moved on base with her. I had turned 18 one month prior to signing the lease with him. 1 year later, he committed suicide out of the blue. No note, no warning signs. His mother and friends blame me, even though she had been helping us to look into buying a house. We weren't toxic or childish. We were serious and in love. Its been a year. I feel so lost, so sad, so fucking angry. I dont know what to do, ive only ever had myself.