i'm irritated because my back hurts again and its always the same area and i never pinpoint what causes it whatever it may be but im so tired of chronic fatigue and these random chronic aches and pains and the random surges of anxiety and the obsession and overthinking about things that give me anxiety whether its my relationship or whether or not its the right choice in the future for my life or whether or not i have to do xyz or for the assignment coming up next week or this or that and why couldnt i be one of the easy ones with a disorder the first and most basic SSRI would 'cure' or therapy wouldve worked magic but nothing works not sure if its bc its likely genetic and not trauma caused but jesus christ im so tired o f it all i just want stablity and i dont want to slave over work the rest of my life once im out and i just want to be by myself but also not and im scared of the future and life passing time fleeting my parents getting old and dying theyre 60 and 70 this year