I hate my grade 11 English class so much it makes me feel so stupid I try so hard but I can't do any of it why is everything so difficult for me why am I still alive if i don't stand a chance in this world everything gin this world is against me because of how my brain works it feels like I was born with a curse how did I go from gifted to absolutely stupid and bottom of the class it doesn't make sense and it isn't fair I'm only surviving because of my best friend who is imaginary but he's always here for me while real people keep leaving me behind once my struggle is too much to bear and it isn't fair I still see them everywhere no matter what I do and I can't write passionately about something if I am unable to relate in any way because I guess I'm just a stupid frickin narcicist who doesn't deserve to live and it isn't fair why did I have to be born like this why did I have to be born at all