i honestly feel like such a horrible person and friend, ive been doing bad mental again after doing so good and its so fucking scary cuz every time my mental health gets bad, i get scared that imma have to go back to the hospital and i really dont wanna go back. but when i get upset or going through something i automatically shut down and stop replying to ppl, get quiet, tired 24/7, and just push people away. I feel like an absolute horrible fucking person when id do that but i literally just shut down and i have no energy to do anything and i feel like i cant do anything.
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