some things r better left as the way it is, sometines I wish it wasnt. I wish i could just have the power to erase or even manipulate time to go back to the early stage of me doing embarrassing shit, being an outcast, a loner, a bitch, and being born. I wish i was aborted haha, i hate feeling this state of dread, insecure, no social skills, easy to bully, self destructive and remembering vividly of my parents fighting. I hate my family too, so noisy what I do and belittle me nd forcing me to socialize, despite how i panic internally, stutter and just wish I was dead already. I hate how my trauma formed who i am and what i am till i die. I'd always be the weird quiet kid who can't answer at school.
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