Every time I cry I have to play music really loud or wear noise canceling headphones because I hate myself and the way I sound. I don't know what to do with my life anymore and every day I get so close to ending it no matter if things get better or not. I wish I wasn't so unloveable, I wish people actually liked me, I wish my dad hadn't died when I was 8, I wish I didn't get cheated on, I wish my mom acknowledged me, I wish I was a better son, I wish I could slit my wrist without thinking im doing it for attention, I wish my life could just end already. I'm only 16 years old but I get treated like an adult who should know what to do in every situation. I just want to lie down in a grave as I watch the dirt pile above me.
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