I want to be in a relationship but I hate the thought of it. Hate the thought of the other person possibly not truly caring about you, I hate the thought of possible cheating, I hate that the other person could just not feel loved by you and just not say anything, I hate the possibility of meeting a good person with terrible communication, or just wanting a hookup, or just anything that isn't genuine love. I don't like the thought of it and just wish more people can be genuine and not be open and real but being around so many people also makes me want to close out and not let anyone in. Like slowly the bad is starting to out way the good people and it makes me not want to try anymore. I dont want my heart to turn cold towards love or true intimacy, I also can help but to admit that im scared to truly open up and love and not be matched.. thats a different level of heart break I'm trying to heal from. Trying to continue to look at the bright side of things. It cant all be bad. Right?