I fell in love with both of best friends (at different points in my life) I couldn't tell the first best friend because of my pride and fear of rejection. The other best friend told me "not looking for a relationship" but then they both meet and then BOOM they start dating. Heart shattered. I share how I feel about everything... now I'm the thorn in the group friendship. First bestie tells me that the feelings I had for her wasn't real. Starts telling me that was lying to make her feel bad. Tells me that she can easily take me out of her life. As if me being there for her meant nothing. Breaking our friendship for some years for a man who she just met, who is my best friend as well. They tell me to speak my mind but that just gets us in another fight. No matter where I point the knife it gets pointed back at me. I love them both dearly I would go to war for both of them. But the question stands would they go to war for me even though they were so quick to kick me out of their lives?