it feels silly and its something i know ill feel regret later for letting it out but i feel so invisible. Im in a beautiful amazing group of friends (11-12 or so ppl). Theyre the best thing I can ask for. The cliques I would noticed that formed was the only thing i focused on getting older. i just wish i was in one of them. I know they love me, ive been told before. i dont really feel like im someone they even want to talk to or hang out. We do have hangouts, sometimes. Its kindsa rare now but i noticed a certian clique that stills go out. I used to go out with them. but no one asks anymore so it feels like i was forgotten. like an after thought. i used to play games on my xbox with them around a year ago typing this. they still play with each other. before i didnt even need to ask, theyd just invite me in game and wed be on call. it doesnt happen anymore. i still wait on the game to see what happens though. i wish i was more interesting that theyd want to hang out with me more.