Today is our 21st year anniversary and we been at it for about 3 days. I feel like I’m not a priority to him because he would say yes to all his friends or someone who ask him for something, but when it comes to me he hesitates, and you guys must be wondering why can’t you leave him, because he says things that involving unalivin himself, so I’m stuck in a cycle, I do love this man, he’s been the only man I ever been with for this long, but I notice things has changed, intimacy has been lacking on his part, and it feels hes not attractive to me, I’m 37 south East Asian and I’m on the heavy set side, i been heavy all my life so it’s not the weight, everytime I try asking or talk to him about the issues I have, he deflects and get defensive. I just feel so lonely cus I done so much for him and I feel like he doesn’t see. I literally gave half my life to this man and I feel like I get nothing back. I’m not asking for much, I’m just asking to be loved.