srry ts is badly written, eng aint' my first language and im not too well rn.. Idk why but at the smallest things at times i just drop, not as in depression, ik it's not that. like today. firend told me they could call,then denied at the last minute because they had to call another firend of theirs. that just hit very hard, now i think that im very easily replaceable, i'll never be at first place for anyone, because everyone will always have someone better than me. that i've no friends so close i can just vent to and actually feel listened. that im just a small piece in the life of every person i know. and maybe yeah, im not that special after all. idk why but i feel like this about many other things i can't remember too. too many things just hit me so deep, for no reason, and hell, i know that in a day or two i'll be completely fine. It's just weird, It's like I have no middle ground and it bothers me not begin able to understand why..