I don't know what to do anymore I just really want to die I don't want to torture myself No one really likes me There's nothing special about me A trashy person I just ran away from using drugs Drinking and smoking I don't want this I want to live peacefully With someone to be with I love her so much The reason is because I changed but she is tired of my chaotic life My family is making me hot I am guilty I am everything Their dream for me But my dream I don't want The salary is big I want I can give everything Everything to me Not one of my friends even says hello I don't have any of them I really have no friends who don't need me