Damn, life is so hard, it really gets me down. It really leaves me speechless; I keep asking myself if I deserve what’s happening to me. I’m like, “Did I really cross the line to feel this pain and sadness?” Hahaha, I’m even speaking in English here, My boyfriend is like, he knows me well enough to say he loves me, but he doesn’t know what’s really going on in my life. Damn, man, I’m so drained. Honestly, so much is happening, and I don’t know what to do. I’m stuck at home, can’t really do anything, Because of him, I’ve sacrificed everything—even my parents’ trust is gone because of him. Look at me—I’m a mess, and I’m not even allowed to go out, even though I really, really want to. Meanwhile, he’s out having fun with his female friends. He’s such an idiot, and I’m such a fool.