Alright so basically I’m 21 got really no friends and I want to find someone bad, but at the same time I don’t really care about love, maybe I’m just needing a connection but i feel like everyone else just moves past me. I don’t feel like I matter especially when the girls who I try dating say oh you’re so nice but I won’t date you because I want to protect you, like I’m just done, I have so much to give but I feel like I can’t show myself to the world, maybe it’s me holding me back maybe it’s not. I have a group of friends that I can talk to and they know what I look like and say oh there’s someone out there for u but is there? Everywhere I look I feel like I’m just not mattering. What even is my purpose, do I have one? I have big dreams but it seems like I can’t get there because I don’t know what to do. Do I try finding love, do I just focus on my friends. I haven’t even kissed a girl or been in a relationship but why am I craving that so bad. Why am I a problem to everyone?