why i can be more beautiful/handsome? my friends are literally in relationships, in love with someone or just with best friends. why i cant? why i ambeing judge everytime i fucking talk or say something, because they even talk shit about my appearence. i fucking hate everyone. i want to overdose myself with antidepressants until i sleep forever. i hate the way i talk with someone, im so fucking egoist with everyone and i just need to die. my mind is literally so distorsioned. i dont have happiness anymore. just pain and discomfort. "If You Guys Want Me Alive, Then My Goal Is Hit Myself Until I Die" that was the thought i haved after May 13, 2026 (comitting until i finally stab myself but the stupid knife didnt even work. both of them), because my parents didnt let me kill myself. what an idiotsand cowards. Fuck everyone. @SailyK