my friend is going to study in a university in another country and i, staying in our motherland, feel stupid and not smart enough for being just like them. i plan on leaving my country in the future for political reasons, but right now i don’t feel ready as i am only a teenager without a stable income or even a degree. there are people who had become immigrants at my age, and it just makes me even more disappointed in myself. i feel like a coward seeking excuses while others, people who are able and more brave than me, had already managed to move to another country and they’re living their best lives right now. i feel like it’s already over for me and hate myself for my cowardliness. i feel as though i need to do things right now, right at this moment, or my life is just doomed. i feel super miserable right now. and i also feel like less of a person for staying in some random ass uni in my native country instead of being brave and going abroad like some of my peers did.