If he (my bf) doesnt sleep with me I feel unloved. If he does I feel used. Nothing he did made me feel this way he listens to me very good. I just cant bring myself to say when it hurts. He has no way of knowing and wants me to say smth. Its from the SA in my childhood and earlier relationships. I feel disgusted with myself all the time from it. I thought when I was young If other people did it it was okay cause several people did especially adults and as a kid you think adults never do anything wrong. I just would feel gross everytime. What the worst part is im just now realizing years later what it was. Nothing I can do now.