I hate myself so bad and im two people in one body but i dunno if thats even possible and everyone in me is a different person and my physical body doesn’t reflect that at all. Like sometimes i wish i was born a boy but other times i imagine myself being born a boy and just transitioned to a girl even tho im cisgender. I tell my friends that i just go by she/they but how could I tell them that im actually two different people with opposite genders in one body… ik i dont have DID because i can hear them talk to eachother and can semi-control what they’re saying but at this point i dunno if i myself is actually one of them or a third person. I used to think that all my problems would be solved if i was just born a guy (bc gender dismorph cuz one of them is masc and i thought that was the “real” me) but im pretty sure if i actually was then i would still yearn to be the opposite gender. I think the only way i would be satisfied was if i just wasnt born at all and just stayed a concept.