Everyday i wake up tired irritated a migraine in my head and i feel super empty depressed unhappy and super duper numb, i just want to feel happy so i try to play video games listen to happy music but none of them works I was happy 8 months ago because i was with my ex but when she left it all became downhill and since it was start of the school year from 1st semester to 2nd semester i couldn't do shit at all but just feel always sad every fucking day and i cant feel anything anymore but numbness, maybe it was my mistake super deeply attaching to that girl making her my anchor to everything since even before her i felt the same way but not as strong as today. I think i was coping being with her i mean i did love her but i guess i was also obsessed with her because of how i dint got much going on in my life and my parents are pretty abusive as hell so i guess i cling to her more and since she was the only person i had and had no friends well i guess the loneliness hits harder now.