I used to be a perfect honor roll kid, and I loved school. I loved to learn, and I still do. But ever since I moved, everything's just gone downhill. I threw myself into stupid relationships with 17 year olds at 14, I obsessed over a stupid bitch who only wanted my attention, and my last relationship with yet another 17 year old was weird asf and basically drew kinky art of me. I failed two classes this year, and the rest were just average. I know I can do better, but I wont fkr whatever shitty reason. I used to be so good. I used to be my mom's favorite child, until her fucking husband SAd me and everything just went downhill. Now everything is blamed on me because I'm the eldest daughter and I'm supposed to be the best, supposed to be a role model for my little brother, who is turning out to be a little shit because of my fuckass stepdad. How am I supposed to be a role model when all I have is a traumatized mom, an abusive stepdad, and an absent father? How tf do I be better?