How can someone genuinely love a nobody like me? I'm miserable. No one deserves to love someone like me. I wake up late. I rarely take care of myself. I depend on my little brother to do almost everything because I simply don't want to. I get angry when things aren't the way I want them. I get controlling. I get selfish. I get bratty. I don't study, even when someone's sacrificing so much to give me a better life. But I didn't ask for this, right? Why should I study just because someone decided to believe in me? I don't even believe in myself. I'm not loyal to my friends. I'm not funny. I'm not the life of the party. I'm not kind. I blame everyone but myself. I'm someone who just can't accept when I'm wrong. I treat my family like garbage, my friends like items, and my boyfriend doesn't deserve someone like me. I never wanted to be like this. How did it end up like this? God, kill me.