I'm falling in love with a controversial online figure. Yes, you seen that correctly. Over the last (almost) 2 years I've been infatuated with a man who created one of my childhood games I adored (and still honestly do.) our age gap is pretty bad. It's a 20 year age gap... yikes! I'm honestly quite sad though because I fear I may never have a chance with him, so many people question who would want to even settle down with him because he's "ugly". Well, I would. I've had a crush on him since I seen his YouTube videos about his game, as I got older I found out what he looked like and it turns out he was my type, and now years later I still find myself emotionally, romantically, and sexually attracted to him despite the age gap and how much he's aged. This is really the only place I am able to express how I feel about him because other places like reddit would take it down or I'd get cancelled since he has a bad history online.