i cant even eat normally anymore. nausea, nausea, nausea. i just want to be able to eat SOMETHING without feeling like im gonna puke. im so fuckin hungry all the time but nooooo i cant eat because. of all this stupid shit. im getting so skinny its making me worried. which is a cause for concern because i do not ever care about that stuff at all. its stress. its always stress. im fine with stress, i can handle stress. but not for 10 years straight. its getting so bad im thinking about seeing a doctor. maybe its not JUST stress and theres a cure!!!1!1!! yeah thatd be wunderbar. unfortunately the doctor would probably try killing me before even helping. all the doctors in this city are just greedy pigs. they dont care about your problems. they exploit them, they make it worse, because woaahhh money is everything. who cares about the sick and poor dying guy, am i right? whatever. my options are nonexistent. i either starve to death or i dont. and if i dont that leaves more room to suffer.