i was thinking about ending it all before or after graduation. show how much of a failure I've felt and I always felt like I was not good enough since kindergarden, which is kinda sad now that I'm thinking about it. I never felt like i reached to the top or anything. I feel like i wasted my entire teenage years and that I'm simply rotting away. but there's also apart of me that doesn't want to die, I'm afraid i will waste my life still? idk but I know for sure i will always be last picked, move to the side, a background figure and nothing important.
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