ive got stupid PTSD, MDD, anxiety, and a whole lot of other health issues. this year sucked and all the mental health professionals don't listen to me when i say anything. "You just aren't trying enough" is all I get, but ive been trying since I was born. the only reason im alive is because im scared to die and ive seen the hurt caused by it. i have ideas on what's working and not and the doctors don't care. science doesn't lie they say, well SCIENCE IS NEVER 100% CORRECT IN THIS FIELD. ive given up on life and have sacrificed a lot with no improvement. the only idea that i think might work is a service dog, but its not evidence based. I KNOW MY FUCKING BODY AND A DOG WILL HELP WITH SOMETHING! YOU WANT ME TO GET OUT IN THE WORLD, GIVE ME THE STUPID DOG! i literally stay in my parent's bed all day unless i need to leave for doctors/therapy appointments. my dad literally sleeps in my bed. sometimes i literally question if it will ever get better like everyone says it will. IT WON'T