Okay so I just finished my freshman year of high school, and I've have two heartbreaks by far. I'm still getting over my previous one, but for some reason my heart has somewhat started to attach me to this guy, and I don't know why but I can't stop thinking about him. This is very very confusing for me as someone who struggles with their sexuality because I swore to myself I'd only ever like women after my childhood best friend basically treated me like a peice of gum on his shoe when we met again. But, I do have reason. The guy is really sweet. He's not one of those assholes in grade nine who's only focus is getting a girl... And not even to consider a long term relationship with, let alone marriage. When I joined intermediate stage band, he basically said "you're not leaving without succeeding" when I wanted to quit on day one. That, and he helped me consistently, learning the piece we played at spring concert. He made sure I succeeded. But I don't know how to feel.