I KEEP HITTING THE FLOOR OVER AND OVER AGAIN WHILE THE WHOLE WORLD SPINS AROUND ME LIKE SOME HORRIBLE FUCKING CARNIVAL RIDE THAT NEVER STOPS. I can’t even hold my own body up anymore. My legs give out, my head screams, my chest feels rotten, like my entire body is decaying while I’m trapped inside it WATCHING IT HAPPEN.I feel trapped in this pitch black room with no doors and no windows and every time I think I find a way out the walls just close in tighter. School keeps crushing me into the ground, people keep expecting me to talk and smile and socialize and ACT HUMAN when I feel like I’m seconds away from completely snapping in half.And when I finally stop and take days off, it gets WORSE. I spend entire days sobbing in bed, rotting under blankets, staring at the ceiling wishing someone would tear me apart piece by piece because I can’t stand being inside my own skin anymore.I KEEP TRYING. I KEEP TRYING SO FUCKING HARD. I push and push and push myself until I feel like my bones