I'm trying to do things I like, but I just feel so detached from everything. Even my favourite games refuse to clear this fog of indifference. I want to feel emotions again. I want to feel like I have a purpose. I want to have desires. Everything I do is just for the sake of doing it, nothing more. It feels like the only thing I do is pass time. Even writing this, it is just to progress through the day. What happened to smiling, to wanting fresh air, to hanging out with friends? Other people seem so put together, with their pretty little lives and pretty little opinions. Then there's me: ugly, alone, and losing sight of happiness. Now, I'm going to go and continue to play games that make me feel the same as doing nothing. How wonderful.
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