i look so happy but in the inside idk how to tell people but i fell so left out i always see videos of people having plenty friends . well , i have friends but i wanna just call them fake friends they back stab me again and again , it went on 3rd to 4th grade , not until i lost someone someone who i tell my feelings ,my day ,my anger on people i call him dad cuz his family , he adopted me from my mother cause we lived away from each other and my entire childhood was there , he suffered to a lot cuz he was sick after i knew he was gone already i sobbed everyday thinking i wabt to die , i skipped school for a week my class send me condolenses after just 1 month they back stab me again , i have a bff but she will just snitch on me. :((