I really hate owing someone something. Basically, I'm still torn if my decision is okay, I don't know. For my OJT, one of our blood related person backed me up to be accepted in the company. However, upon processing my papers for the company, it's been hard, for instance, we kept on waiting for them for 4-5 hours just for our papers to proceed. That is why I decided to find another company, and I got accepted too without other's influence. So now, my mother kept on reminding me that my choice is wrong cause the she already asked for a favor. But my parents are also the one who agreed for me to proceed my OJT in the other company. So now I'm torn, I'm ashamed, and I'm stressed. I know it's a consequence but I'm tired of my mother kept on reminding me that. And it doesn't help that our blood related person is our neighbors. Now, they are not talking to us. I know it's my fault that is why it's so hard for me to go on without being drained. I have no room for mistake cause I'm the eldest.