It hurts. Everything hurts so much. I want to cry but I can't, 8 feel like those dark days of last year are coming back again, I just wish I had someone to tell, someone to take me away from all this and just hug me for a while. Love me for a while. Ara ma'am is just a teacher, why do I want her to take care of me so badly? When my own parents are unable to comfort me how will she? It is hopeless, i suppose. But when I think about lying in her arms, hugging her and crying out all my sadness into her suits, I feel relieved. I feel like i feel too much, and think too much. I wish I were as simple as so many of my other friends. They see a problem and they think let's fix it. I see a problem and start to critically analyse it. I feel like I'm desperate for attention, but I need someone to be there for me. Sr ma'am helped me yes but we don't match. And ara ma'am is way too wonderful for me to ruin my reputation in front of her by telling her that I'm dying. I feel like dying. I need her.