I had a really bad situationship that I cut off after 3 months because of the 3 month rule iykyk. But during that time he was talking with two other girls and his ex which I guess I don't care since we were never a thing. However, he always forced me to show him my body and touched me even when I didn't want to be touched. It got really bad to the point I self harmed and the ONLY reason why I stopped initially was because my birthday was coming up and I was throwing a party that needed a fit with no sleeves. But to this day I still get those images in my brain and every time I look at my hands I can't help but scratch and want to cut them to pieces. I want to scrub my body until my skin is gone and lather it with soap again and again. I want to scream and cry and I do, but I just wish I could tell someone this and just get a hug after. I don't have trusted people because when my family found out they said I should do it and die if I really wanted to. I just feel horrible.