It kills me that I can't be skinny. Everyone I'm surrounded with is thin and slim and beautiful and I feel like so disgusting. I don't have a pretty body type and I just don't look good and all I've wanted for years is to be able to lose this weight. It's so draining after so long to still be stuck in square one, and it's so frustrating knowing that I'll never be able to achieve my goal. I feel like I've wasted so much time and potential. And I can't talk to anyone because I don't want to hear that bullshit about "you're beautiful how you are" well I don't feel myself in this body, I feel trapped and I feel like the extra weight and fat is suffocating me.