i hate having a small dick. it doesn't matter what anyone says, being below average sucks. i've heard the entire spiel about how it doesn't really matter and you can do more but no one ever talks about how everything about current culture makes it so easy for you to get literal body dysmorphia over it. i've been pushed to suicidal ideations over it, over hating myself about something i can't control. why is it that i'm born with 'less'? why is it that i bother so hard to become someone who's a decent person in a culture where there's so many shitty men getting whatever they want out of life? it's not funny anymore. it's never been. every single 'small dick' joke i've taken to the chest with laughter and then i get home and just despise my body. i hate having been groomed when i was young. i hate having watched porn so young. i hate the fact that i was groomed into this bullshit cycle of pornography that just makes me feel worse about me. i hate feeling less. i hate it.