its crazy how a near death experience will change you. I've never been so happy to see colors, smell, hear nature, drink water ???!!!" Like literally anything I'm so grateful but at the same time a part of me is saying I don't want to be he here anymore. Probably because the pain is unbearable. My heart feels like its dropped 100000 meters into a pit, somedays I can laugh and communicate and I'm grateful I truly am and then some days I'm just NUMB. No words can form if they wanted to and i just shut down so hard I can't even fake a smile to comfort my mom so she knows I'm at least OK. I'm not.
the world2 felt this