I'm so tired of everything, my meds work but I still constantly feel like I'm under pressure that I can't get rid of. Since I'm still a minor and because of my slipping grades I might not be able to get a work permit and idk what to do since I'm not allowed to just relax during this summer break. I think I might just run away atp and live out of a backpack and eat dumpster food. I already thought about selling most of my stuff so I can live okayish while homeless. One of my friends wants me to live with him but I don't want to be an annoyance on him as well. I just wish I wasn't a pain in the ass to everyone and I think the only way for me to not be a burden is to either disappear off the face of the earth in the eyes of the law or to be dead.