If it turns out I don't have ausitsm I genuinely don't know what I'll do. I've been wondering if I do for quite some time now, and I've been out in the queue for a diagnosis meeting whatever thing. If they say I don't have autism then I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Because something is wrong, and autism seems to fit, but if it's not that, then I don't know what the hell is wrong. It might be ADHD too. Or I'm just a weirdo loser who can't focus for shit. I'd be a regular person who simply sucks ass. I have a friend who got diagnosed. She keeps telling me to get diagnosed. And I'm working on it. But she genuinely treats me like I'm dumb and I hate it. I don't know how many times I've been standing WITH A MAP ON MY PHONE and told her where we need to go for her to say "no we shokdl go here" AND THEN WE GRT LOST AND IT TSKES HOURS TO GRT HOME. JESUS CHRIST. Got off track. My bad. My parents made food. Thinking about eating it makes me want to throw up.