Bittersweet Comfort When life actually feels like it's going well, we are happy, and joyful. There is always a certain feeling that lingers. The hole filled with sadness…That never goes away. Because everything could be going right but something is always drawing you back. For me it is my sadness. I always go back to that sad little corner in the back of my mind. I do it on my own. I am so comforted with my sadness consuming me, it now feels like my safe haven. I always run back to that feeling. Those thoughts, the sad music, the depressed state. It makes feel less alone because somehow, I can always count on that feeling being there. It feels like self-sabotaging. It practically is. I have admitted to myself that I am so comfortable in my little sad space that I don't want to be better. Which is sad as it is. I can't even recall a moment in which I actually felt pure happiness. It's like I crave for that happiness but once I have a hold of it, I run away from it.