cheated on my ex. twice. it was a while ago but i still haven't moved past it because it's probably my biggest mistake ever lol. i'm a huuuge attention seeker and have been for most of my life (emotionally absent dad, you know how it is.) so i've always wanted more and more from any of my partners. at some point it just wasn't enough for me, went to seek out more attention by cheating. somehow i got a second chance after the first time. buuuut once a cheater, always a cheater. of course i did it again. so we've been apart for about 8 months now and i've gotten into a new relationship. i think i've learned my lesson after all the consequences i faced, but i'm still afraid i'll do it again. i don't want to be a cheater, it doesn't bring me joy. but i'm afraid that what my partner has to offer won't be enough for me at some point. maybe i'm better off single. yes, i've had extensive therapy. i don't want to hurt the person i love.