Why is being an only child so awful? Nobody in my house really talks to me and my friends at school only talk sometimes. I’m alone ALL THE TIME. I can’t even do anything about it. I think this is why i strive for online friends, but that doesn’t work either. Everything just seems so quiet and empty. And then i get left with my own thoughts. When i’m left with my own thoughts, i get sad because i am scared to open up to anybody and there’s nobody to open up TO. i hate the feeling that i have nobody to talk to or ill get judged. I want to tell people how i feel and what i’m struggling with. BUT I CANT. because what if someone tells my parents or some counselor? i don’t want to be exposed like that. And i want help, but i don’t want to get better. It’s addicting, honestly. It’s awful in every way as well. Because i’m hurting myself and i WANT to. but then again i know i shouldn’t and want to stop. i hate being alone, i hate being an only child. and i’m tired of nobody being there for me.