Lately I've been feeling... empty. I don't really feel mad, sad, happy, frustrated, or anything. I feel absolutely nothing. I wake up and I don't wanna leave my bed, I don't wanna study yet I don't wanna have fun or anything. Of course when I spend time with my close ones I usually laugh and have a good time but it is... temporary. 1 Hour max? After this I start to have enough of everyone and just wanna do... nothing. If that wasn't enough lately I've feeling extreme pain in my whole body and it's driving me insane because I can't even sit without sometimes crying in pain. Idk honestly, I just want... everything to end. I don't wanna kms, of course not, I don't have the "balls" to do it but at the same time the though of living my life is just... not as thrilling anymore since I meet "XYZ", who is litellary a person I've wanted to be my whole life. Rich, smart, liked, a lot of friends, girls are after him... What I would give to be in his skin for 1 one day. To feel like feels everyday