Im a female, but I feel like I'm not qualified as one, since I was young I heard men around me say girls that look like me aren't girly enough, and I was too young and my mind took it as the truth, I'm half African half Arab, so men around me would say girls who have brown skin, curly hair "aren't real women", even tho ppl called me pretty alot, I suffered from severe gender dysphoria and I even would get very shocked everytime I see myself in the mirror and find out that I'm not a man not even close. Because what am I if I'm not a real woman, I'm 20 now n I still dunno how to feel about this, and I come from a religious family, but it's still confusing to me, I'm attracted to men, but I dunno how to bond w them, it feels like a mystery to me, how can girls easily do it? i deeply believe that men wouldn't even touch me n I'm literally daydreaming 24/7 about how my life would be as a man, maybe I could've been able to love and be loved, I just keep myself busy to not face this reality.