I'm so stressed about my health. It's constant doctor's appointments, ruling in or out different chronic illnesses or autoimmune illnesses. I'm scared. Surgery is scary, having eleven different doctors all simultaneously working together to try to find what's wrong. My doctors are amazing, I'm just scared. I keep having seizures in my classes, and I've scared almost everyone in my classes since I've been diagnosed with other things that feel similar. It's hard to know what is what and when it will happen. I wake up from them to see my teachers have evacuated the class and the school trauma nurse, my vice principal, principal, and my teacher/s all staring at me with a MERT bag and Defib. I know they all try to comfort me, but it's hard to remember when they do. My coaches have kicked me out of my extracurriculars for being a liability. I want to feel as if I'm in control of my body, and I want to do the things I love. I want to be me again, not some sick teenager.