hello i feel like i ve traded my relationship for my carrier and for my own good in a sense . for context i was in a relationship with this girl for 3 years and even though she had a lot of problems , i did too and i loved her , i really did and a part of me still does even after six months . i decided to go into medicine right after highschool and i dont regret the path i ve taken because i love what i am studying and even though it s hard i push through but will all of this love for what i do i cant shake of the feeling that i passed one of the most beautiful human relationships i ve ever encountered and i threw away the only girl that truly loved me for who i am and not for my looks or for my status . she loved me when i had nothing and when i achived everuthing i wanted up to that point and she was there for me when i needed her but at the same time she was agressive manipulative and violent twoards me . i never ever hit her but she did hit me and something in me broke that night .