Yesterday I took a train to the city over because it has a 4 story building and it's the only place I could think of that I could access and was high enough to kill me if I jumped. By some act of god, my mother ran into me getting off the train after id already texted her and my father goodbye. She grabbed me, hugged me and cried. I couldn't speak, so I ran. I ran towards the nearest set of tracks I could see to end it but she shouted to people standing at the platform to stop me. Three, four grown men pinned me to the wall and wouldnt let go of me, I couldn't move, I was pleading with them to please let me go. I just wanted it to be over. The police were called, detained me yada yada and I end up at the hospital where I speak to them about why I did what I did only for them to tell me there's nothing they can do for me. I feel the same way i did yesterday today. I was going to leave a note but nobody cares. Except maybe you, take care of yourself.