I hate therapy. Everyone acts like I need it, and then I show up and it goes the exact same way it always does. Same questions, same answers, they tell me I'm probably right or that its perfectly reasonable to feel how I do, no progress is made. I know I'm not nice enough to myself, but I hate all that compassion shit even if it comes from somebody else. It feels so phony and delusional to me. I think its fine directed at other people, I've got plenty of care for people, but compassion directed at me makes me wanna puke. Emotional comfort disgusts me like porn disgusts me. it feels like such an unrealistic delusion people get sucked into. I hate words and concepts and all that when I'm in crisis, is where it comes from. I just want people to sit next to me and be there, genuinely. When you say it'll be okay and tell me stuff I already know it makes me so much more miserable. idk this got off topic but I just wish therapy worked for me.